One and Only

You´ve been on my mind,

I grow fonder every day, 

Lose myself in time, just thinking of your face.

God only knows,

Why its taken me so long 

to let my doubts go,

You´re the only one that i want

I don't why i am scared

ive been here before, every feeling, every word,

i´ve imagined it all,

You´ll never know if you never try,

To forget your past and simply be mine.

I dare you to let me be

Your one and only,

i promise im worthy to hold in your arms,

So come on and give me a chance

to prove you im the one who can,

Walk that mile, until the end starts...

If ive been on your mind

You hang on every word i say

lose yourself in time,

at the mention of my name

will i ever know

How it feels to hold you close,

And have you tell me,

Whichever road i choose you´ll go..

ive been here before, every feeling, every word,

i´ve imagined it all,

You´ll never know if you never try,

To forget your past and simply be mine.

Judging me?

Scars that won´t heal

Whats worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should´ve healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we´ve been and what we´ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That´s what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over again.

Im trying, trying hard to learn.

As i feel

" There´s a reason i said I´d be happy alone. It wasn´t ´cause i thought I´d be happy alone. It was because I thought if i loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It´s easier to be alone, because what if you  learn that you need love and you don´t have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then falls apart? Can you ever survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It´s like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever."

A promise is a promise...

                                                                           
















I don't consider  myself an old fashion woman,

but, lets say i stick to my beliefs, and my principles. 

I believe in many things...i believe in respect people and theirs choices, even when i dont agree, i believe we owe truthful relations with everyone but mostly the ones we love,
 i believe in right and wrong... 

Sometimes we have to chose, not often remembering
that every choice we make, 

carries a consequence, takes us to another road, 
and eventually to another choice.... 

I believe some choices can be the wrong ones, and sometimes, not many times, 
we have the chance, the opportunity to go back and chose again, 
to undo the mistake, the bad decision (lets say it that way) 

when we don't, even after a chance been given to us, then , 
the choice is made and there's no turning back.

We

I believe in love, im a believer that i am.

I think there aren't  that many things worth full, meaningful ,
really worth to keep...

Love, relations, affection, happiness, moments...

Those we take´em with us, we never leave them, they live inside our hearts and minds,

and its what makes life worth living for.

Life´s a Bitch

I am not the moaning and bitching type of person,
im tough,
i don't get confused, 
i don't hesitate about things,
i don't have back thoughts,
i don't doubt myself,
i rarely think "i cant make it",
i don't accept failing,
i don't tear apart.
But today....just today,
I ain´t feeling´tough
i´m feeling confused,
thoughts spin inside my head,
i have many doubts,
im thinking i might not make it,
i accept that people fail sometimes because no one is perfect,
and i do tear apart, today into a million pieces. 

Introspection...

 I feel I'm not able to give voice to my thoughts .... in English, Portuguese, Russian, or whatever language,  there is no linguistic ability that can rescue me when words collide inside my mind, and its as if i´m drowning unable to emerge... everything would be so much easier if i just had a switch off button ....

To my Fantastic Mr. Fox

I´ve been through some rough days (weeks, maybe months) recently

Moving forwards and backwards, hoping that the backwards wouldn´t happen again...

But it always does.... and i got lost.

Me

No words would describe my mood better

Having a break

I´m having some days off from work and university (and obviously from here also, been slacking on posting), so im basically spending my days doing literally nothing! 

Well, one thing im doing is sleeping like theres no tomorrow, it´s been a while since i was sleeping 9h per day. 

Besides that i´m just reading interesting stuff, researching more about stuff coz i now have more free time, staying in pj´s and taking nice breakfasts with everything i enjoy eating without caring about how big my hips will be...

Switching off my mind from all the things im usually doing never felt so good.

So this is it

Although i could not be here singing and jumping all by my self, and when i say this i mean it;

gosh and last months nearly everything happened to me, from wanting to give up (from things and people), to having flu on my Christmas vacations, not forgetting to mention the disappointment of  being hurt by those that should never dare to hurt my little sweet, kind heart, but here everything is on the healing process, and hopefully soon enough those who caused it will mend it.

Been a little pissed off lately